Cher was "traumatised"
when she realised she would never hear her daughter's voice again.
The 64-year-old singer
begged her son Chaz Bono - who was born a female named Chastity and
began gender reassignment surgery around three years ago - for a
copy of his old female answering machine message after becoming
"hysterical" when she called and reached his new voicemail.
She said: "I was
hysterical one day because I was calling Chaz's answering machine
and I realized it was her old voice, and then I said, 'Chaz is there
a way I can save it because I will never hear that voice again?' And
there wasn't, it was gone.
"That's the most
traumatic thing that has happened to me in this whole thing -
hearing her voice and knowing I'll never hear it again.
The 'Believe' hitmaker
also admitted she avoided seeing Chaz - whose father in the singer's
late husband Sonny Bono - for a long time after he began treatment
because she was so nervous.
She admitted in new
documentary 'Becoming Chaz', she said: "I was so nervous. I hadn't
seen her and I was putting it off.
"My boyfriend finally
said, 'This is crazy, just do it.' I said, 'I'm so terrified of what
will happen. If I don't recognize her, what will happen?"
Cher also admitted she
still doesn't feel "comfortable" referring to her offspring as "him"
rather than "her".
She added: "At some
point, I'm gonna have to start calling her 'him'. It doesn't seem
comfortable to me yet. Actually I just can't remember and I guess
I'll start forcing myself but I'm not sure she cares."
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